Torn freedom (a tribute to Chinua Achebe)


He pointed far east as he innocently asked  “where is that dark place?”

I couldn’t answer straight , because as at few days back my mind still battled between Hopes and Impediments,  but its dying.

I am a soldier, my fight began at the Anthills of the Savannah, my cause wasn’t to be a Man of the people nor to prove power, I wasn’t even married then, but then  Marriage is a private affair.

The few combats we won and the shots I narrowly escaped were signs that I was saved by an Arrow of God. Yes, I may have comfortably survived Dead men’s path but inside me I was No longer at ease.

Everyday I missed home, The Flute, The Drum.

I searched steadily for Civil Peace but somewhere inside, my heart told me Beware soul brother, its a “torn freedom”.

And finally, the day the fight was lost, the day a part of me was lost, the day I came home, was the day I realized that Things fall apart.  Although I haven’t given up, but I am tired.

And for my little grandson, the next time he pointed far east and asked me “where is that dark place?”

I simply smiled and replied There was a country.

In loving memory of Prof. Chinua Achebe (1930 – 2013)

as penned by:

Nwanguma Ogo (Sic)

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2face & annie (nuptial vows)

Considering the years of youth and imperfect experiences they saw. We found their nuptial vows poetic.

2Face’s Vows:
Many years ago I was farther than the eyes could see.
Now we are now in that future
When I look into your eyes, I still see
You came into my life and you lit it up
Like the sun, like the moon, like the stars
All the words in the dictionary
All the words in this world can not be enough
To say what my heart feels for you.
But all I can say is baby, my heart is like a stereo right now
And it will beat only for you till death do us part.
I love you baby.

Annie’s Vows:
My joy! My heart! My friend! My love!
I stand before you today as open as I can ever be, humbled by the light and love in your eyes.
13 years ago, I met the most amazing man on earth! I flew on the wings of that love, uncaring, unheeding! Believing firmly that you are and will always be the wind beneath my wings!
Life happened, oh yes Life happened but through it all my heart beat only for you!
My heartbreak became my greatest joy!
My strength! My life!
Day after day I am more in love with you!
When people ask me what is love! I say Love is right here! This moment! This second! Today! Tomorrow! Love is you! Love is real! Love is my eternity with you Innocent Ujah Idibia!
I give you all of me today knowing that in you and you only has this imperfect girl found perfection!!!
I do 13 yrs ago when I met you, I do 7yrs ago, I do 5yrs ago when we created our daughter! I do through all the blogs and tabloid headlines! And on this day, at this very second I stand in front of the world and I say I do take you as my wedded husband! I love you! I love you so much, so so much!!!

Bless this Union.

Nwanguma Ogo (Sic)

 

“Abdul” (spoken word)

His name, was Abdul
2 streets away from my avenue
He was calm, collected and cool
A great boy no doubt, but also was a fool

Peer pressure,luv of the crew & gambling too
Made this young man drop outha school
From a good home, a household well to do
He reduced that love to a family of two

I was 9. was the first time I heard a gun,boom
But in yrs to come, I won’t be hearing a few
He wailed as he fell on a nearby pew
No one came, not even a dude frm his crew

Abdul laid there hours til moms heard d news
Heartbroken she was as she cried “only 22″
I watched in shock as he entered a place new
his body got cold as his soul flew

Decades have passed
But the memory I still think it through
Please stop the violence I ask.
lest You make an Abdul out of you.

Nwanguma Ogo (Sic)

“soul beret”

I stirred the caffeine more times than I sipped.
Thoughts of my beautiful struggle filled a sense uncommon.
More like a train window that remained dusty. but I saw my destination clearly.
Am on my way to peace overlooking the outcrops of reality.
Whom I have become was obviously unplanned, but who I will be is already in the sculptors fingers.
The sound of the missiles reminded me of what forever didn’t mean.
But I let go these thoughts and then I penned.
Take this note and give her, you know who.
You don’t have to show her the scars that gave her this meal.
Nor the care that made her this real.
Don’t explain to her when she asks why the paper seem rough.
Just tell her the words were born the days I lost the gland that secretes hope.
As for you my friend? Just know that I can finally load a cartridge in the dark.
And to me, this war is Over.
Aye’

Nwanguma Ogo (Sic)

Sicily101

Pure

So, all these years I stayed true
I mean, what wouldn’t I do, its u
Am not about, the nights I felt blue
Nor the times for you I caught flu

I speak of the moments I passed through
how hours rolled and times flew
the hopes I nursed and still do
The hurt, the halt and the pain too

U could let me speak my heart to say a few
But hell,what do I knw abt feelings & loving u
Can I even keep up with u & ur hot crew
I mean am just a rural boy with much coo

I own no diamonds nor Golds for us two
All I have been is more or less your walk beau
One thing I own is my breath & until its due
I hold it and I swear that I LOVE YOU.

Nwanguma Ogo (Sic)

@sicily101

Survivor

SURVIVOR”

My sincere strife to survive has been uncovered

My hunger to breathe is no more news.

I’ve let go the worms of worry that have kept me bothered

I may be one, but I have shared my thoughts in two’s

Don’t try to understand my mind

Unless you promise to return the innocence they stole

I’ll keep searching, and someday peace I might find

Am not a fighter but freedom is my goal

I may choose to lounge on self pity

But I’ll always blame me for the fruits of wasted years

Or I may fuse on steady positivity

And finally let go the roots of my salty tears

Do me a favor, tell the world am coming out of my shell

Because pain has left me numb

Am done saying it, its time to live it well

Fear has made me strong.

Nwanguma Ogo (SIC)

@sicily101

Goodnight Pain (A tribute to Aluu4)

Goodnight Pain

“thieves, thieves” he screamed, it was almost funny. Not until more voices joined the chorus as they screamed and shouted on us. We could have ran at least to save our lives, but our intentions were genuine and little did we know how the day would end.

From a handful of young men shouting and throwing questions at us, it escalated to a crowd of angry mob. There was no way we could escape this one, so we calmed down.

They pushed us around and then stripped us all. These men pulled us pants down, we were more than embarrassed, the whole community watched, I recognized few faces from the crowd. Obviously they were so afraid to say “stop”

then the beating started, I wished it to be just a nightmare. But it was real, these men were determined. They dropped heavy rocks on our heads, they pounded our faces with large planks, blood covered our eyes, they matched and kicked us right on our bleeding nostrils, we couldn’t breathe.

“Bring tire” one of the men repeated, until they brought the tires. “Oh God!”

We watched the crowd watch us, we raised hands of plea, we couldn’t speak, Some hid, some shot videos and took pictures. there was no one to stop this. This was the point we knew it was over. We felt pain, helpless and hopeless.

I thought of my siblings, I wondered how my mum would take this. She would fall apart. I begged God to hold her for me, comfort and make her strong for me, I prayed same for my friends. Then we started crying, we cried together. the tears gave us headaches.

We looked up high, the sky was still. Rings of tires landed on our necks, they kept hitting us, but we were numb already. They set us ablaze. We rolled around, tried to reach for each other, I wondered who would give up first, the fire burned our bodies. it hurt, it hurt and then it hurt.

But suddenly the pain stopped, Then I couldn’t hear any other thing, but silence.

I thanked, God. the pain was over.

Goodnight pain.

RIP ALUU#4

Nwanguma Ogo.

@sicily101 @dtmiil

cerebration of a a virtuos life seeker.

Feel free to call me Ajar
Cos Often times I have forgotten my cause.
And i end up paying dearly n start again afar
So, may this fear always bring me to a pause

Do I take my finest walk on a still stream?
Have I forgotten the words tht grew me?
Get back to life I yell, I scream
Reality is the only one, I let to school me

Do remember me by my words of today
Quote me by my vocals of the now
I wasn’t born to go astray
Focus can’t be lost. No way, no how

Buh alast whatever u bless, I’ll bless
Jst like rabbai told peter
Call me a loyal protege, more or less
Am not an alibi. I’m just a virtuous life seeker

Nwanguma Ogo.

@dtmiil @sicily101

An Ode To Life

I saw this morning, but called it Night

You think its bright enough? put up a Fight

is this end still far, is it left or Right?

Cos patiently, i’ve walked this tunnel to see the Light

They say, when the days get Hollow

May i taste my tears, its as sweet as Sorrow

I’d live like theres no Tommorow

But inspiration matters, to these minds that Follow

Oh! my eyes ache, all i see is the Odds

My voice i have lost, i do the Nods

Please touch my mind, caress my Thoughts

It’s a life restrained, filled with Buts

Will good and evil ever Blend?

Will the meek and soft ever join the Trend?

But yet, only if i understood these words i’ve Penned

Slowly but steady, this pain will End.

@sicily101 @dtmiil